i
sit in the cold
alone with my thoughts
why did you come here?
i don't want to see you
not for a long
long time
when i see you
i just want to hold you
i just want to be in your arms
it is so cold
but i can't look at you
but when i'm in the same room with you-
you are all i see
i am so cold
the air is freezing
i have never felt more alone in my life
why do you avoid me?
it's too cold
why
do i always come running back?
all
the shit you've done to me means nothing.
i
always come back for more
bleed
me dry
suck
out my soul
kill
my innocence
i
loved you... too bad for me
i
loved you... but i set you free
unknown
to me
all
the pain you would cause
you sucked me into your
fucked up mind
you made a complete fool of me
you lied to me
called me your little girl
i remember the way you held me
in the end
everything was so empty
i tried so hard
to make everything better
i was consumed with fear
i was so afraid of you
of what you would think of me
if i told you what i was really thinking
i was afraid to let go
because i was afraid that you would change your
mind
and when i finally let go
you changed your mind
i felt you die inside of me
you made me feel like shit
every time you touched me
i knew it was fake
i knew you were holding something back
i knew that you didn't want to be with me
but, the whole time,
you continued to fuck me...
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copywritten 1999 Melissa Ann Cook
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